For those who don't know, I am currently on "business" in Hawaii. I have about a week left here before we venture out into the open ocean to do some exercises with other ships from around the globe.
I have made LOADS of progress with my problem. I haven't had a drop of liquor (or beer, or any alcohol for that matter) in over two weeks. It's a short time for some people, but a long time for others. I don't even want it anymore, to be honest. I feel like my eyes have FINALLY opened and I'm starting to realize who and what is really important in my life.
Let's talk about how I feel now that it's not a part of my life. Before I do, let me make it clear that I do not consider myself an alcoholic, and I can be around alcohol and not desire it.
That being said, it is definitely frustrating. Not because I want a drink, because I don't. It's because all everyone around here seems to want to do is "turn up." WE ARE IN HAWAII! We get to come here for FREE! All we pay for is whatever we decide to buy...dinners, shopping stuff, whatever. Nightclubs, bars, etc. are going to be the same here as they are in CA. Alcohol is alcohol. Maybe I don't get it because I don't go out...but as far as I am concerned it's a waste of time, energy, and money, and not worth the hangover the next day.
It's also sad. In just a short time, I realized that there people I have to weed out already because they don't get it. From other blogs I've read, that's pretty normal. I expected it, just not so fast. Hopefully they will come around and support my decision once they see I'm serious about it.
At the same time, it's all worth it. As cliche as it sounds, those who really support me will stick through it with me...through the crabby attitude (although I don't know if that's related or not...), and whatever else happens, and I'll know who my true friends are.
By the way, Hawaii is beautiful. I can't wait to bring Derek here for a real vacation.
I have made LOADS of progress with my problem. I haven't had a drop of liquor (or beer, or any alcohol for that matter) in over two weeks. It's a short time for some people, but a long time for others. I don't even want it anymore, to be honest. I feel like my eyes have FINALLY opened and I'm starting to realize who and what is really important in my life.
Let's talk about how I feel now that it's not a part of my life. Before I do, let me make it clear that I do not consider myself an alcoholic, and I can be around alcohol and not desire it.
That being said, it is definitely frustrating. Not because I want a drink, because I don't. It's because all everyone around here seems to want to do is "turn up." WE ARE IN HAWAII! We get to come here for FREE! All we pay for is whatever we decide to buy...dinners, shopping stuff, whatever. Nightclubs, bars, etc. are going to be the same here as they are in CA. Alcohol is alcohol. Maybe I don't get it because I don't go out...but as far as I am concerned it's a waste of time, energy, and money, and not worth the hangover the next day.
It's also sad. In just a short time, I realized that there people I have to weed out already because they don't get it. From other blogs I've read, that's pretty normal. I expected it, just not so fast. Hopefully they will come around and support my decision once they see I'm serious about it.
At the same time, it's all worth it. As cliche as it sounds, those who really support me will stick through it with me...through the crabby attitude (although I don't know if that's related or not...), and whatever else happens, and I'll know who my true friends are.
By the way, Hawaii is beautiful. I can't wait to bring Derek here for a real vacation.
