Today's challenge is to pick three legitimate fears and describe how they they became fears. For me, this one isn't really a challenge. I know three right off the top of my head. They are as follows: ants, pregnancy, and swimming. I will go into detail with each one below.
Firstly, ants. I never used to be afraid of them, I might not even say that I'm afraid of them now, technically. I don't think it's a fear, per se. It started when I lived at home, and I'd be doing my homework late at night and ants would crawl out of nowhere onto my papers, and then I would go to sleep and wake up because i felt them on my face/body. i hate that feeling. There are ants in my home now, and I really hate it, but lately I've realized no matter how clean i keep my house they will keep coming in.
Secondly, pregnancy. I never used to have this fear, I actually would embrace the fact that one day I'm going to get "fat" and I was okay with it. That was until one day, I was reading a facebook post from a friend about how she could not get out of bed because of the 'basketball' attached to her stomach. Then I realized, wow, I'm going to have back pain, hip pain, and I will explode. This is not good. It gives me anxiety now to think about it, because I've always been pretty small...but somehow I'll work through it.
Lastly, swimming. Yes, I know, I joined the navy and I hate swimming. Thanks. It's about having to jump off the diving board into cold water (cold to me, not to anyone else, apparently). It's about having to come all the way up, swim to the side, not get out, and then continue on doing 'strokes' that I really have no idea how to do. I can tread water. I can float. I can swim underwater. But apparently that's not good enough. I can't relax when I hit the water, either. i don't know how. Mad anxiety.
What are your fears? Can you relate to mine?
Firstly, ants. I never used to be afraid of them, I might not even say that I'm afraid of them now, technically. I don't think it's a fear, per se. It started when I lived at home, and I'd be doing my homework late at night and ants would crawl out of nowhere onto my papers, and then I would go to sleep and wake up because i felt them on my face/body. i hate that feeling. There are ants in my home now, and I really hate it, but lately I've realized no matter how clean i keep my house they will keep coming in.
Secondly, pregnancy. I never used to have this fear, I actually would embrace the fact that one day I'm going to get "fat" and I was okay with it. That was until one day, I was reading a facebook post from a friend about how she could not get out of bed because of the 'basketball' attached to her stomach. Then I realized, wow, I'm going to have back pain, hip pain, and I will explode. This is not good. It gives me anxiety now to think about it, because I've always been pretty small...but somehow I'll work through it.
Lastly, swimming. Yes, I know, I joined the navy and I hate swimming. Thanks. It's about having to jump off the diving board into cold water (cold to me, not to anyone else, apparently). It's about having to come all the way up, swim to the side, not get out, and then continue on doing 'strokes' that I really have no idea how to do. I can tread water. I can float. I can swim underwater. But apparently that's not good enough. I can't relax when I hit the water, either. i don't know how. Mad anxiety.
What are your fears? Can you relate to mine?
I cannot relate to your fears, as I know how to swim and can't get pregnant. I understand them.
ReplyDeleteI can absolutely relate to the ants thing. It's like walking into a spiderweb. In and of itself, not entirely off-putting. But it sends shivers down the spine regardless, the mere thought of touching, or being covered in it. Just...* shiver *
My fears are somewhat flexible in their potency. I think I would ramble too much to get into all that business. Maybe I need to do a 30 Day Blog Challenge...